bloggy blog world

“rome” is burning, I say. we live in this world that should make us so fucking happy, we have all the technology that’s supposed to make us smarter and our lives easier, all the means to make us more fun, more popular, more sensual and all we all crave for is the attention of another human being. no matter what you do,no matter how hard you try it all turns into shit. do happy endings still happen? i mean i know, who says we have to be realistic? but on the other hand society and the moral grounds it stands on says we should keep one foot on the ground at all times.you would think that with all the private schools all students can be happy to have a career, with all the crisis people still buy a lot of expensive shit,with all the parks and what’s left of nature we spend our time in bars and clubs. with all the porn and sex toys all guys should swim in a sea of pussy and all girls choke on a wood of dicks. too visual? well sorry but i’m outspoken. i believe in the declaration of love down on one knee, but it’s not a proposal – it’s a blowjob or a cunnilingus.and all that shit about being independent and equal and personal developement – we all want at one time to be the master or the slave and personal development my ass, all that counts is how tight your ass, your abs, how good your tits look and how long your bonner lasts.oh, and dont get me started on money, we all want it so bad, and when we get some we just want more. big houses, luxurious cars, braded clothes and for what? cuz it’s like honey to the bees for the other independent and equal folks. god hates us all to quote hank moody, cuz it’s so fucking easy for all the other mamals: they smell their asses and they go throu with it. don’t get this as an angry blog entry, i’m just having of moment of total lucidity and unfortunately no internet at the moment. this whole manifestation of modern wisdom might not even make it to be blogged.don’t get mistaken, i love that this world lives in sin and fucks for a cocktail, i love it that we give into temptation and i love it when people actually believe in romance and equality and human rights, i love it that people stil believe in marriage and fairness…my modest advise is to take it how it is and try to make the best of it afterall, we’re all artists on the inside, right?

later edit: trying to discover the loss of internet, i remembered that, like always, if i leave the laptop lid up the kitty plays at the computer , found it open today , he probably pressed the wireless button, cuz when i thought of that and pressed it again…miracle: the internet came back !since when you commit to something, you’re suposed to stick with it: i’m posting this.so surrender to life folks, but don’t give yourselves away!

make up by Buti fashion by old no. 7

an even later edit to bloggy blog world. from filip’s messesnger status :we all love someone or something that we can never have..good thing God has a sense of humor !

fata merge pe jos…

joia trecuta in silver church (preoteasa) alexandrina impreuna cu 7 instrumentisti extraordinari au facut un show foarte soulfull care a fost apreciat de prea putini dintre cei care au venit acolo. am stat in primul rand prima jumatate de concert..incercand sa enjoy muzica. era greu sa faci asta pentru ca fotografii lu’ peste casunasera pe alexandrina, se certau, dadeau coate si calcau lumea in picioare. un individ imi zice ca sa dau capul la o parte 10 minute..i-am zis ca unii oameni mai vin la concerte pt muzica, el zice ca unii tre sa isi faca jobul…which exactly was his job? to be a licensed asswhole? if yes..he did it perfectly. la un moment dat decidem sa ne mutam mai in spate, unde lumea statea de mici barfe, cine pe cine a mai futut? ce balerini si-au luat, ce tigari au mai aparut, ce de cacat e la scoala? pt ce dracu ati venit la concert oameni buni? nu puteati sa barfiti si dupa concert? sau intr-un bar in care nu se tine un concert? concluzia e ca am mers acolo la un concert superb, pe care l-am savurat dar am ajuns sa scriu blogul despre cu totul altceva.
poze de la concert aici ! noul album al alexandrinei se numerste Om de lut si am un poster pt cine doreste

it's a wonderful world

too bad it’s a very fast, stubborn one. no matter how hard you try to catch up it’s always a step ahead, no matter the choices that you take (yeah I believe in free will) it might just happen the world’s gonna ignore you completely. no, I am not saying we should all just give up, what the fuck, believe in destiny and faith if that’s what floats your boat, I don’t want to burst you bubble but it might just happen you look back one day and realize that it even if you put the record right it started playing backwards. just random thoughts and let’s say a song and some lyrics….

Sometimes I find myself sittin’ back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin’
And I remember when you started callin’ me your miss’s
All the play fightin’, all the flirtatious disses
I’d tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don’t why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We’d spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Drinkin’ tea in bed
Watching DVD’s
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we’d buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
when I was feeling down, you made that face you do
There’s no one in the world that could replace you

Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

unwell

“I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell ,I know, right now you can’t tell but stay awhile and maybe then you’ll see a different side of me .I’m not crazy, I’m just a little impaired ,I know, right now you don’t care but soon enough you’re gonna think of me and how I used to be “

i woke up today..earlier than i wanted, more tired than i wanted..and sick of people. not all people ..just some . people who only care about themselves, people who don’t appreciate you helping them, people who have missed the ground education about common sense and respect, people who do nothing with their lives, people with no goals, no courage, people living in the “no win , no lose” situation. what i hate even more about this type of people is that they disturb the lives of good people, of people who are the exact opposite of them, and they make good and kind people fight, compromise for them, change their lives, get bitter…and it’s all in vain.
a more naive and younger version of me would have accepted all people, just as they are, but not anymore, because i’ve come to realize some people just don’t deserve it. so all that i will do know is try to ignore …for the sake of the good people i love. it’s hard but some people are worth it. so, starting the day on a grey note..but ..when we have love , we can make music out of any notes.

revelations

I was thinking..because I should have been sleeping..and that’s my ultimate substitute for sleep…
am lucrat in tot felul de domenii…si I’m damn good at it, pe de alta parte in legatura cu practica medicinii de cele mai multe ori ma intreb : WHY? si am putine momente din alea de candoare in care imi doresc sa heal the bad world we live in. So..what if I’m better at managing a hospital or as a member of the Board of administration of a hospital? Ma gandesc foarte serios la chestia asta, pentru ca ma ganeam la jobul actual si la faptul ca vreau sa avansez in companie, si la faptul ca fac bine tot ceea ce fac….si la faptul ca n-are nici in clin nici in maneca vreo legatura cu medicina.
Chiar cred ca sunt mai buna ca agent Sprint decat ca studenta la medicina..nu ..nu o sa renunt la facultate..ca nu m-am chinuit degeaba 5 ani..dar..poate ca nu mai vad excitementul din a face garda si a vindeca pulimea (deh..badea fan). Poate peste 2 ani o mare companie de farmaceutice o sa aiba nevoie de un leader cu studii in medicina si abilitati de manager…si…as castiga mai mult decat varianta amaratei de rezidente. So.. many stuff happening inside my well developped but tiny (cumpar caciuli de la copii) little head.

si asa de final de panseu si ingandurare..muzica : beirut-nantes