feeling alright

I am ridiculously awake given that I haven’t slept AT ALL in 2+1/2 days.  But it’s all good, it’s alright. Unfortunately due to the total of 5 hours that I’ve slept since Sunday today I gave in to the small (rolled and packed) pleasures of life . I love coffee too and it’s just not the same without. I’ll stop eating and save some money…

Turns out that there was a virus that GG sent me, good thing I have recently learned not to invest my time in things that are not worth it. No bad joke, confidence in human beings (or what’s left of it)  still here.

Spent almost 3 hours this morning organizing my music..alphabetically. Next step..by genres..but that’s gonna take days…good timing since I got myself a 4-day weekend with Thanksgiving…

Today I’m feeling even more altruistic than usual so…you get 2 videos. Enjoy!

LATER EDIT : Decided to use the money I had for painting my room for a greater good: of me getting my tattoo. Good decision, it turned out great !

bloggy blog world

“rome” is burning, I say. we live in this world that should make us so fucking happy, we have all the technology that’s supposed to make us smarter and our lives easier, all the means to make us more fun, more popular, more sensual and all we all crave for is the attention of another human being. no matter what you do,no matter how hard you try it all turns into shit. do happy endings still happen? i mean i know, who says we have to be realistic? but on the other hand society and the moral grounds it stands on says we should keep one foot on the ground at all times.you would think that with all the private schools all students can be happy to have a career, with all the crisis people still buy a lot of expensive shit,with all the parks and what’s left of nature we spend our time in bars and clubs. with all the porn and sex toys all guys should swim in a sea of pussy and all girls choke on a wood of dicks. too visual? well sorry but i’m outspoken. i believe in the declaration of love down on one knee, but it’s not a proposal – it’s a blowjob or a cunnilingus.and all that shit about being independent and equal and personal developement – we all want at one time to be the master or the slave and personal development my ass, all that counts is how tight your ass, your abs, how good your tits look and how long your bonner lasts.oh, and dont get me started on money, we all want it so bad, and when we get some we just want more. big houses, luxurious cars, braded clothes and for what? cuz it’s like honey to the bees for the other independent and equal folks. god hates us all to quote hank moody, cuz it’s so fucking easy for all the other mamals: they smell their asses and they go throu with it. don’t get this as an angry blog entry, i’m just having of moment of total lucidity and unfortunately no internet at the moment. this whole manifestation of modern wisdom might not even make it to be blogged.don’t get mistaken, i love that this world lives in sin and fucks for a cocktail, i love it that we give into temptation and i love it when people actually believe in romance and equality and human rights, i love it that people stil believe in marriage and fairness…my modest advise is to take it how it is and try to make the best of it afterall, we’re all artists on the inside, right?

later edit: trying to discover the loss of internet, i remembered that, like always, if i leave the laptop lid up the kitty plays at the computer , found it open today , he probably pressed the wireless button, cuz when i thought of that and pressed it again…miracle: the internet came back !since when you commit to something, you’re suposed to stick with it: i’m posting this.so surrender to life folks, but don’t give yourselves away!

make up by Buti fashion by old no. 7

an even later edit to bloggy blog world. from filip’s messesnger status :we all love someone or something that we can never have..good thing God has a sense of humor !

1:32 am

Is there anything you want from me? My arms, my life, my energy? I don’t know how far I can go, and everything says no but you know how it goes when you’re used to your side of the bed.
I know you don’t belong in this room but you’re here now o what can I do?
All that I am is all I was taught to be, all that you are is a wall between myself and me.
Have you ever really looked at me? Or thought about me secretly?Do I make you wonder at all about the speed of light?
Outside our little world we might not feel so alone and I know you don’t belong in this room but you’re here now so what can I do? All that I am is all I was taught to be. All that you are is a wall between myself and me…

revelations

I was thinking..because I should have been sleeping..and that’s my ultimate substitute for sleep…
am lucrat in tot felul de domenii…si I’m damn good at it, pe de alta parte in legatura cu practica medicinii de cele mai multe ori ma intreb : WHY? si am putine momente din alea de candoare in care imi doresc sa heal the bad world we live in. So..what if I’m better at managing a hospital or as a member of the Board of administration of a hospital? Ma gandesc foarte serios la chestia asta, pentru ca ma ganeam la jobul actual si la faptul ca vreau sa avansez in companie, si la faptul ca fac bine tot ceea ce fac….si la faptul ca n-are nici in clin nici in maneca vreo legatura cu medicina.
Chiar cred ca sunt mai buna ca agent Sprint decat ca studenta la medicina..nu ..nu o sa renunt la facultate..ca nu m-am chinuit degeaba 5 ani..dar..poate ca nu mai vad excitementul din a face garda si a vindeca pulimea (deh..badea fan). Poate peste 2 ani o mare companie de farmaceutice o sa aiba nevoie de un leader cu studii in medicina si abilitati de manager…si…as castiga mai mult decat varianta amaratei de rezidente. So.. many stuff happening inside my well developped but tiny (cumpar caciuli de la copii) little head.

si asa de final de panseu si ingandurare..muzica : beirut-nantes