1:32 am

Is there anything you want from me? My arms, my life, my energy? I don’t know how far I can go, and everything says no but you know how it goes when you’re used to your side of the bed.
I know you don’t belong in this room but you’re here now o what can I do?
All that I am is all I was taught to be, all that you are is a wall between myself and me.
Have you ever really looked at me? Or thought about me secretly?Do I make you wonder at all about the speed of light?
Outside our little world we might not feel so alone and I know you don’t belong in this room but you’re here now so what can I do? All that I am is all I was taught to be. All that you are is a wall between myself and me…

it's a wonderful world

too bad it’s a very fast, stubborn one. no matter how hard you try to catch up it’s always a step ahead, no matter the choices that you take (yeah I believe in free will) it might just happen the world’s gonna ignore you completely. no, I am not saying we should all just give up, what the fuck, believe in destiny and faith if that’s what floats your boat, I don’t want to burst you bubble but it might just happen you look back one day and realize that it even if you put the record right it started playing backwards. just random thoughts and let’s say a song and some lyrics….

Sometimes I find myself sittin’ back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin’
And I remember when you started callin’ me your miss’s
All the play fightin’, all the flirtatious disses
I’d tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don’t why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We’d spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Drinkin’ tea in bed
Watching DVD’s
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we’d buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
when I was feeling down, you made that face you do
There’s no one in the world that could replace you

Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

it's a jungle out there

Welcome to the kate bates motel, the place where normal sleep hours are unauthorized! Insomniac post about lately thoughts and resolutions, raise the glass for the future everyone!
After finishing the 3rd season of m*a*s*h in one day …I dare to say…I’m glad I chose to become a doctor. and I’m not talking about the monkey business in disection,the thick text books, the ~10-15 years of school, the money that you may or may not earn as a medicine man (or medicine woman ) ) it’s just about the fact that you improve or better yet, save people’s lifes.
Yes, I’ve decided that here! the world doesn’t offer me enough, don’t really feel that I deserve more, I just have confidence that I may offer more to the world…elsewhere. So here here for the land of all possibilities! I could say I’m making small steps toward a great thing, with a good person on my side, my parents support (they barely see me now although I’m only 250km away so they don’t mind) and a big smile on my face
So take it or leave it world, I’ve set my mind on this, I’m not going back!

It is a jungle out there
Disorder & confusion everywhere
No one seems to care
Well I do
Hey, who has in charge here?
It is a jungle out there
Poison in the very air we breathe
Do you know what´s in the water that you drink?
Well I do, & it is amazing
People think I am crazy, ´cause I worry all the time
If you paid attention, you would be worried too
You better pay attention
Or this world we love so much might just kill you
I could be wrong now, but I do not think so!
´Cause it is a jungle out there

the execution of all things

In my dreams
I see myself hitting a baseball
In a green field somewhere near a freeway
I’m all tan and smiling and running from 3rd base
And it’s hot and
The kids keep on playing the driving game
And they’re singing the same goddamn refrain
And the sky is a blueish grey.
And its become just like a chemical stress
Tracing the lines in my face for
Something more beautiful than is there
I’ve barely been gone.

In my dreams
I see you at the foot of some mountains.
And we’re taking some pictures or something
And we’d better hurry up
And it’s late and
The sun keeps on shooting through pine trees
And the grass stains are wet on your new jeans
And we’d better hurry up
And I’ve become just like a terrible mess
searching the lines in my face for
something more beautiful than is there
the crowds keep me coming back. Cheering.

In my dreams
I see you asleep on a twin bed
The covers pulled up over your head
Am I asleep or awake?
And it’s morning
And the captain is playing the radio
And hes just put the paint on his new boat
Am I asleep or awake?

And it just feels good when you’re waking up
And it just feels good when you’re next to me
And it just feels good when you’re coming home
And it just feels good when it’s waking up

And I’ve become just like a chemical stress
Tracing the lines of my face for
Something more beautiful than is there
I’ve barely been gone
and I’m not a failure
I swear
I wish you could see it from over there
I’ve got a lot over here without you
I’ve barely been gone
gone
dreaming

Soldiers come quickly, I feel the earth beneath my feet.
I’m feeling badly, it’s not an attempt at decency.
And if you’re well off, well then I’m happy some for you.
But I’d rather not celebrate my defeat and humiliation here with you.

And we’ve been talking all night….

And lastly, you’re all alone with nothing left but sleep.
But sleep never comes to you, it’s just the guilt and forever wakefulness of
the weak.
It’s just you and me….

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when you had a bad day…

the next day,as average as it may be, feels sooo good! it’s just that simple.
after one of those days where you’re so tired, because you haven’t slept in 2 days, and you work the graveyard shift and you still have to go to school during the day…so you get home and you’ve reached that point where you’re no longer able to fall asleep.and after 40 something hours you go back to work and yawn the night away.but you get home and it’s warm and fuzzy, you smoke a cigarette and get in bed, Mr. boyfriend feels you’re there and holds you and finally..you get to sleep, the good sleep, 8 hours of baby-like sleep. when you wake up the sun is shining bright, and you feel good, you get that feeling “today is gonna be a good day”. and you have time to smoke in peace and eat a good meal, you feel like dancing around when they play that song you like on the radio. nothing will get you down today !

so what you had a bad day?!a new day has come…

this being my 1st blog, nice to meet you, I’m the insomniac wacky girl next door

Daniel Powter
Bad DayWhere is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion’s gone away
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You’re faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life’s been way off line
You’re falling to pieces every time
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

Because you had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don’t lie
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Will you need a blue sky holiday?
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

You had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don’t lie
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
You had a bad day

(Oooh.. a holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I’m not wrong

(yeah…)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You’ve seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day