The clock is ticking

It is, I can hear it, it keep me from sleeping, I can actually hear it even though I took out the batteries. Tic Tac Tic Tac. You know there’s this play, theater play called “Love lasts for 3 years” ? It true and it’s another way the clock ticks. And work, it’s all dandy and nice, for the 1st six or seven months, then you start hearing the clock ticking. Family? Well clock usually starts ticking when you’re 18 or so and you want to move out and be independent. All of live is just consecutive revelations betrayed by a ticking “clock” : 1st kiss, 1st love, 1st job, 1st wife, 1st kid..and there’s a last for every 1st? When’s the last? When the fucking clock stops ticking! BUT! It starts again from scratch and another chapter of a ticking life begins.
What can we do? Get the damn batteries out and go with the flow. You cannot change a ticking clock, it just stops when you get to your last LAST. Now let’s all relax and listen: Tic Tac Tic Tac Tic Tac Tic Tac Tic Tac Tic Tac Tic Tac Tic Tac Tic Tac Tic Tac…..

1:32 am

Is there anything you want from me? My arms, my life, my energy? I don’t know how far I can go, and everything says no but you know how it goes when you’re used to your side of the bed.
I know you don’t belong in this room but you’re here now o what can I do?
All that I am is all I was taught to be, all that you are is a wall between myself and me.
Have you ever really looked at me? Or thought about me secretly?Do I make you wonder at all about the speed of light?
Outside our little world we might not feel so alone and I know you don’t belong in this room but you’re here now so what can I do? All that I am is all I was taught to be. All that you are is a wall between myself and me…

archive

Basically..just toon in for some older posts here !

And now: Run Forrest…run !

-nici o legatura intre titlu si blog..it just came to me
- i know i’m alone if i’m with or without you
-facebook thinks my real age is 34 yrs…that’s just sad…
-i got blood on my mouth cuz i’ve been biting my tongue all week
-oh yeah..appreciate me..i am a godess..
- 0% defect rate…so what..any monkey could do it
-and clean and wash and be the only one to keep it clean
-and x-mas at home is not so 100% as it was
-i’ve been so broke..i wish i knew a ur fat black momma joke for this one…i don’t
-some kids are sweet , some are just fucking annoying monkeys
-3! in pula mea
-a venit mosu dan de la constanta si apus cioco si la mine in ghetute
- smirge of a smile is taking place
- delilah has no magic anymore..or at least not right now…

nonsens nonsens bs bs bored bored terrible mood….i wish i could just be quiet for a day but i’m afraid of hearing all the thoughts in my mind…so tahilalieeee..

revelations

I was thinking..because I should have been sleeping..and that’s my ultimate substitute for sleep…
am lucrat in tot felul de domenii…si I’m damn good at it, pe de alta parte in legatura cu practica medicinii de cele mai multe ori ma intreb : WHY? si am putine momente din alea de candoare in care imi doresc sa heal the bad world we live in. So..what if I’m better at managing a hospital or as a member of the Board of administration of a hospital? Ma gandesc foarte serios la chestia asta, pentru ca ma ganeam la jobul actual si la faptul ca vreau sa avansez in companie, si la faptul ca fac bine tot ceea ce fac….si la faptul ca n-are nici in clin nici in maneca vreo legatura cu medicina.
Chiar cred ca sunt mai buna ca agent Sprint decat ca studenta la medicina..nu ..nu o sa renunt la facultate..ca nu m-am chinuit degeaba 5 ani..dar..poate ca nu mai vad excitementul din a face garda si a vindeca pulimea (deh..badea fan). Poate peste 2 ani o mare companie de farmaceutice o sa aiba nevoie de un leader cu studii in medicina si abilitati de manager…si…as castiga mai mult decat varianta amaratei de rezidente. So.. many stuff happening inside my well developped but tiny (cumpar caciuli de la copii) little head.

si asa de final de panseu si ingandurare..muzica : beirut-nantes

mini-vacation

so..being that we had a long stressful summer away from home..and that we didn’t really accomplished all that we had planned..I decided to surprise David with a trip to Cluj .since we’re together-and it’s like 2 yrs..he’s always wanted to go and never got to it so I thought..perfect timing we get to see a beautiful town with beautiful people and *thank you Fire for plotting with me in this,we can’t wait to see ya so fun fun fun awaits us..and most probably we’ll have pics to show when we come back …this is what it’s all about…fun!(yeah…go to school. ….have a job…yaeh,be responsible…but have fun for fuck’s sake )

insecurity check

so…dupa ce aflu cu stupoare pe 09/17 ca am examen la gastro pe 22..incepe disperarea.avionu meu pleca pe 25 ajungea pe 26 asa ca am schimbat biletul de avion, m-am intors duminica 09/21 (noteaza fusul orar)..am stat toata dupa-amiaza sa pun cat de cat casa in ordine si sa scot mirosu de naftalina, noaptea am invatat, dimineata am dat fuga la Fundeni…dat examen practic, dat examen mare..luat examen..venit acasa, terminat de facut curatenie, facut cumparaturi..dupa un apogeu de aproape 40 ore am adormit seara pe la 9..trezit la 3 dimineata….de atunci…uitat la ANTM si la Space Chimps, citit la onco, luat david de la aeroport, peripetii la dus spre aero si dupa ce am ajuns acasa, invatat chiru…si e 5:00 si la 8:30 am examen…si la 13:30 iar am examen..si as vrea red-bull dar nu e…si cafeaua nu e d’aia buna….intr-o nota de ” I hate Bucharest si de ce am plecat din NY ? ” enjoy! si pumnii stransi sa scap de restante